how bout 3 steps back....??

well today was a totally rough day... I couldn't help but cry off and on. I know that I'm super tired of all of this and I can't even imagine what my daughter and son in law are feeling... First off the spinal was two hours off as they ordered the wrong chemo?? how did they do that?? Kinda makes me worried.. Then they had to poke her two times in one arm and one in the other to get blood.. Didn't I say that she had a port and they are supposed to use it? I don't know what is going on lately over there. I'm sure glad that I'm off as of Friday so I will be able to do the chemo runs next week and keep an eye on everything. Then she had chemo over at the cancer center which went okay but why is she getting chemo if her white cells are so bad?? All this chemo is only going to make it worse.. So Dad has the trip tomorrow so I told him the questions that I wanted asked. Jess didn't get home until about 5 pm tonight and they have to leave at about 9 am tomorrow so it will be a long week for her. I just thought and prayed for her all day and it just makes me super depressed. I just want to grab her and hold her tight and take it all away.. Well I will let you all go and I will let you know how it goes tomorrow. Please put her in your prayers! Love to all, Cindi