Thursday June 2nd

Well Jess had an okay chemo day but let me tell you she is showing a lot of exhaustion. It scares me to see her like this but she is determined to get her 3 weeks done and over. She looks so tired and sick of all this but she never says a word. I of course, on the other hand is basically a blubbering mess. I think about her and I cry, after I see her and she leaves, I cry. I talk to other people about her and I cry. I just don't know what is wrong with me.... Well I was hoping that Pat would get to see the doctor today but nope that is tomorrow...and of course neither Pat or I are going tomorrow! So it will either be Robbie or Jon (can't farm with the weather) I'm not sure which one is taking her as of yet. She will get her chemo and blood check tomorrow and then on Saturday they are giving her the shot to help with the white cells. She is going to try to make is for Sat afternoon up at Sky Lakes so that she can make it to Shane's graduation. But I'm not so sure that she should even go with her counts. I guess we will see what it is tomorrow. She could prolly go if she wore a mask but she doesn't like people staring at her sooo..... I just don't know. Well I will let you go. Please keep her in your prayers! Thanks everyone! xoxo Cindi